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New Blog May 14, 2008

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I’m switching to LiveJournal. Here’s my new address: http://drpepperdmd.livejournal.com/

11 More Days Left of School! May 14, 2008

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Today I finished 4 1/2 history lessons. Mr. Linder was really proud.

Dad comes home tonight. Not sure what time though.

The Jazz and the Lakers are playing tonight. Go Utah! I’m not sure who has the home court advantage.

I’m sitting at Dad’s and wasting time until Mom comes over here and makes me come home with her. I want to spend the night here.

-Anna

“My cat did not molest him. My cat molested his fiancee.” May 13, 2008

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Anissa, Katrina, and I all talked on the bus. It was pretty cool.

Anna Grace and I held each other today. It was soft and warm and familiar, like I imagine a baby would feel in it’s mother’s arms.

I’m going on a diet.

-Anna

An unexpected but pleasant plot twist May 12, 2008

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I get to see Anna Grace tomorrow night! Mom said it’s fine as long as I answer the phone or at least text back. I can’t wait to curl up in her arms and tell her I love her. Lately it’s been hard to remember that only my body gets into unpleasant situations because my spirit lives within her and is always cared for and loved. Sometimes it feels like she’s not there at all, much less by my side 24/7. But when I’m with her, the world is at peace.

I may end up staying up all night tonight, because she’s writing a research paper and she has to work really hard on it, but when she’s done she’ll call me. If I accidentally fall asleep, she promised she’ll leave a message, but I want to stay awake if I can. I want to hear it tonight, so I can fall asleep with her sweet “I love you” fluttering inside of me.

Oh my GOD– the BEST episode of Bones was on tonight. Not only did we discover that Tempie and Zac are both amazing singers, but Booth took a bullet for Temperance and we don’t know if he’s alive or not. We find out next Monday at 8 on channel 21 for the Season III finale.

-Anna

May 12, 2008

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Only 2 more days with Mom. I think I’ll survive.

Haven’t heard back from Anna Grace. I’ve decided that Dr. Rogers isn’t going to write, but it’s okay. Maybe now at least she understands what she did for me. Maybe.

-Anna

Thunderstorm— Do Not Appreciate May 11, 2008

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Today I sat down and wrote a song for Anna Grace. It’s called “Beside You” and here is the link to the lyrics:

http://mormonchick1005.deviantart.com/art/Beside-You-85409876

It’s really pretty, or at least I think so. Let’s just hope she agrees. I’m working on writing the accompianiment, which would be scads easier if I knew how to read and write music. I don’t, by the way.

I’m dreading school tomorrow. Not for any particular reason; just because I’d rather sleep. But I probably get to see my dear sweet Anna Grace on Friday!

-Anna

Watching the Rain May 11, 2008

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I’m watching Paula Deen on the Cooking Channel and hiding from the rain. I’m supposed to go to Mom’s, but I’m going to stay home and make a baked potato and watch TV here at Dad’s until I absolutely have to leave. Dad is in Oklahoma on a business trip, and I’m going to be forced to move back in with Mom until Wednesday after school.

Good things about Mom’s house:

Bad things:

Since Anna Grace says her Thursday is going to be insane, I guess we’ll have to hang out on Friday. Still, I get to see her or at least talk to her next week. I can’t wait to hear her voice again. And especially her hugs and her kisses and the way she smiles at me. I love her.

-Anna

Beautiful Red Fireworks and Beautiful Green Eyes May 10, 2008

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The concert was pretty bad, but the fireworks were amazing! I got a good picture on my camera, which I will upload when I figure out how to do so.

But the best part was after the concert, when I SAW ANNA GRACE! And I could hold her in my arms and hear her say she loves me, and she wants to spend time with me, and I got to feel her beautiful green eyes looking at me like she always does. And we’re hanging out next week sometime, which is great.

I guess now would be a good time to post the lyrics to that Michael Buble song I told you about. It’s called “Lost”.

I can’t believe it’s over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I’d only known
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying Summer turned to Winter
And the snow, it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it’s not too late
It’s not too late
‘Cause you are not alone
I’m always there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
‘Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can’t bear the thought
I said, babe, you’re not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy
But you’re not
Things have seem to changed
There’s one thing that’s still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly away

‘Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
‘Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When the world’s crashing down
And you cannot bear to crawl
Baby, you’re not lost

The chorus reminds me of Anna Grace, but the whole song makes me think of Peter.

-Anna

Friends May 10, 2008

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Donna and I are going to a Mothers Day concert in Barnet Park at 7:30. I bought her a dozen pink roses at the Fresh Market. I hope she likes it.

I haven’t been able to get hold of Anna Grace. I know in my head that she’s not avoiding me, probably just busier than usual, but in my heart I worry that something’s wrong. I love her a lot, and it’s hard to not communicate with her.

I miss Dr. Rogers, but I know I’ll see her in August, and maybe she’ll write one of these days.

There’s another girl at my school now!!! Her name is Anissa (but she pronounces it like Anessa and she told me to call her Nessa) and she is there for assaulting and battering a police officer. Her trial date is 13 May. I really hope she just gets under house arrest (instead of jail) so she can still come to school, because she’s fun to talk to. She’s done all sorts of stuff, like group sex and pot and stuff like that. Although I’m a terminal prude, I have an inexplicable but deeply rooted respect for people who do bad things. Anyway, Anissa sits behind me in class and next to me on the bus. She says I’m too good, but she would “hang with me”, so to speak, because she likes my sense of humor and my ability to listen. She’s just 13, but she told everyone but me that she’s 15 so she won’t seem so young. She spends her weekends getting high and having sex, and in some ways I wish I could join her, although I know in reality I never would. Still, Anissa is a good friend (although Dad believes that someone who’s made mistakes can’t be a good friend to someone like me) and a good person at heart.

-Anna

What S.H.I.T. REALLY Means May 8, 2008

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I’ve decided that shit is an abbreviation for Sorry Honey It’s Thursday. You know that morning we’ve all had, when you wake up and you’re like, “Yay, it’s finally Friday!” And then you look at the calendar or your watch or whatever, and it’s like, “Nope, just kidding. It’s Thursday.”

I had that day today.

-Anna